Thursday, April 24, 2014


I suggest this song. I mean tears will probably fall and you might break out in the ugly cry, but it is adorable. Everything by Safetysuit is well worth the listen. Their cover of "Hallelujah" is so so good. Happy Thursday guys!

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Out with the old, in with the new.

Hello friends!

It has been a while since I have last blogged and as you can see I am in a new (prettier) location. There is many reasons for this and for a while I have pondered whether I was going to open my new blog with these reasons or not. It only seems appropriate. Those that followed me before have read things I don't vocalize - things I only share on paper (or digital paper - blog). I shared things that I rarely speak of. The problem with that is my emotions took the best of me and I started shutting down and losing sense of what the purpose behind me blogging was. The purpose was to let things go and to be honest. I didn't do that though. I didn't let things go. I found myself writing about a series of events that have forever left a mark on my life and I found myself dwelling over them. I found myself back in the black hole I was so eagerly fighting to come out of. So I did what I normally do and I left - I ran as far away from that blog as I possibly could and I refuse to ever look back. Some of my best writing may be on there but some of my saddest most painful thoughts also reside there.

Now what? Now I have new "dreams" for this blog. I have new dreams for just about everything pertaining to me. Its fair to say I am living more positively and things are finally looking up. Life really is good and I owe all that to God. There was a time when I questioned my faith and I questioned Him. I didn't understand why everything had happened. I didn't understand how I was suppose to believe in someone when I was hurting so badly. How was I suppose to pray to someone when I was as damaged/broken/and hurt as I was? Because I had lost faith and I couldn't think of the right things to say and whether I wanted to remain here or not was questionable in my mind. Further I went in to this black hole, but things changed. The sun began to shine again and finally the right words were coming. I was asking for strength and little by little I was reminded that God does not give us anything we can not handle. I was reminded that he is constantly with me. I was reminded that if I asked - He would be there. It was such a simple question and yet I had to be reminded that asking was all it took.

So here I am. Just as raw as I was before. As some of you know I don't really have a filter. I feel like its important to be honest and its important to be real. The only difference between then and now is that I am no longer drowning in all of those feelings and memories. I am on the other side now and now I am working through them in a positive light, because this time my faith is strong and He is always with me, working through these things and reminding me all the time just how lucky I am that I came out of that black hole.

Hello life - its nice to have you back! I won't be checking out anytime soon.